A Little Note to Enemies of the MY Void

Dear Comparison, Ungratefulness, and FOMO:

I hear you lingering in my thoughts and searching for a place to land. I feel you trying to seep through and fester. Your empty words ricochet in my mind lacking love and security. I feel you deeply nestling in my heart with your pain and fear. I see you trying to make yourself at home on the questions of “what about me” and “if only.”

Yes, I see you, feel you, and hear you, but I do not choose you. Coming in like a tsunami trying to distort the truth and creating illusions with your “what ifs.”

I choose my void that is slow and mundane days full of power. There is power in the steadfastness of showing up where I am. There are days where nothing feels special, but those days matter the most because there is hope in my void.

So, enemies to my void, I’m writing to tell you I don’t say yes to you. There are days where I give in and I am not okay, and your company feels easier to be with on those days. I’m not going to pretend there aren’t fights you’ve won, but there are so many fights you’ve lost too.

Because I don’t diminish in the void and become the shadow of a dream or person. This is the space that I give birth to the dreams and illuminate. It’s not always pretty and it’s rarely flashy but it’s the foundation I choose to build my life upon, so when I reach whatever dream or opportunity, I’m grounded, rested, grateful, faithful, and hopeful.

I know you will come again, but I will not be fazed by you.

This week I invite you to write a letter to the enemies of YOUR void. Give yourself permission to be authentic with your feelings and declare what's true about you and your process and when you're done, feel free comment below and let me know how it went!